Oh God how I miss you tonight. I’ve found this beautiful community and I come here often to vent what I don’t have the balls to say to you. It relieves me, for now. I fear that soon my feelings will be too strong to fight anymore. I wonder now if I’ve turned into the runner. I am terrified of all of my feelings for you. They are so deep, and so completely illogical, I am terrified to share them with you.
They sound insane to anyone other than me. And they could sound insane to you, too. I want to pour my heart out to you, but we’ve never even gone past friendship. The insanity of it all consumes me. How I could feel this deeply for someone who’s skin I’ve never touched except in passing. How you’ve made a home inside my heart and I don’t want you to leave. How I fear that we are too different it will never work, but I still wonder if the longing that pulls at my soul is enough to keep us together. How I worry that we will become close only for you to start running, leaving me devastated. How I don’t know if I can handle that. Or how I don’t know if I can handle this, either. How I try to weigh the 2 and figure which one is worse. So I sit here, with all my feelings for you, trying to decide what to do. So I hide. I hide from them and I hide from you. And I don’t know how much longer I can hide before the twist of loneliness from your absence eats me alive until there’s nothing left. How one day I might just explode and pour it all out to you, without a care of how crazy I sound. Because I think we’re all a little crazy in this world. I just hope your crazy matches mine.
I think I’ll always love you. I miss you. I want you. With all of my being. I wish I could say this all to you.
Others shared how they’ve also transitioned from chaser to runner, realizing they were more afraid of it actually working out. In the earlier stages this can seem like one of those things that would never happen to you, but you might be surprised. Every journey is unique and doesn’t always develop as you might initially expect.
“if I feel how I do about him without ever having been intimate at all… I’m terrified of how I will feel when we finally cross that line,”
This response hit home for a lot of people.
Another interesting point was about this Earth being a place to hide from our most beloved. Someone beautifully put it, “Funny when I read the subject line my first thought: you came to Earth to hide from your most beloved.” It’s such a poetic way to look at our journey and struggles.
One user shared their journey of trying to cut cords, only to find that the obsession still lingers. They check daily to see if their twin is online, hoping to step away from the obsession soon. This resonated with many of us who are grappling with the push and pull dynamic.
Finally, the advice to “pour out the feelings” and “shoot your shot” was super inspiring. They said, “You might be surprised that they enjoy the swim. Either way you’ll get peace. Trust me. Shoot your shot.” It’s a reminder that our feelings are worth expressing, and finding peace is just as important as the outcome. What do you all think?
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